cigarettes ...are they really that bad

I have never been able to really make out why people try out cigrettes for the first time itself (i don't count the first sip as trying...according to me it takes atleast 2-3 buds to really qualify for having tried 'cigretting'...by the way this is new hip word instead of cheap sounding 'Smoking').....
believe me.....you can say that peer pressure was there..all friends tried...gave to crazy youthful exuberance ..or simply that it is so cheaply and readily available....but the fact still remains that none of these are really the reasons that would bring you again and again to those smoky stalls in never ending zeal for cigretting......
It is more in how you connect to your real self.....the puff when it goes inside..some sought of divine pleasure is felt......it is figuratively similar to a baby sucking milk from his mother's chest......you suck it hard and there then you feel the awkward little warm something going in and giving you life........maybe the chemical reactions inside the body are not the same with both the things i just compared...or rather unsuccessfully tried to compare (nothing compares to a mother or her love), but the whole idea behind it was noble.........
it is this above divine pleasure that makes people do it again and again.......u lite up a cigrette bud....u suck it hard the first time.....the smoke goes in...u see for the cotton end of the bud..it has turned from white to yellow...reflecting the pain it goes to make you happy...and then u releases the smoke out and thanks the cotton end that indeed it's pain was worth and it really made u happy...........
Smoke as so ever been reflection of man's great courage and ability to withstand the tough times.....so many songs have been written around and about this......
'Main jindagi ka saath nibhata chala gaya,
main fikr ko dhue mein udata chala gaya'
or this one
'sochna hain kya,
jo hona hain hoga,
chal pade hain yaaro,
fikr dhue mein uda ke'

For me it is more than this....it is this supreme sense of satisfaction that u get while smoking is that when u see the burning bud....u get a feeling that it is not only you....but there is somebody else too who is burning with you.......it just gets me going..............

As a little token of respect and honour from my side to cigretting.....here is a little compilation that i tried to make from my side........here is the description of various easily available brands in indian markets ......best to my knowledge........

1. Wills Insignia: by far what i have tried...this one is the most exquisitely made cigarette. it is a little longer than the normally found ones and has a very smooth silken appeal to it's taste. The feeling could well be compared to laying your hand gently over a woman's body.
2. Wills Classic Regular: The classic bud as obvious to the name....suits those who prefer to have a strong but a gently smooth taste. Has a cult like following......most famous with chain smokers.... Shahrukh khan is also supposedly a regular to the classic regular!!
3. India Kings : again a brown end bud though...but better be taken as a light cigrette.....good for females graduating from the 'lights' to brown ones!!!
4. Wills Navy Cut: perhaps the most sold cigarette brand in the country (gold flake kings people might object), it is the strongest cigrette and supposedly the most harming too....but people those who smoke this can never settle for anything else apart from this itself.
5. Classic Milds: a much better option for the occasional smokers. niether too strong...can't be called lights either.......gives quite a bit of smoke in every puff.....and makes u feel you are a big time smoker!!!!!
6. 555 : hmmmm.....the original posh cigarette of the indian market....the US brand still has a lot of followers left.....the taste is a little straightforward and gets u a good high.....u should be enjoying this one with a good cup of strong coffee!!!
7. Gudang Garam: just a gimmick....nothing good about the cigarette accept that it tastes of 'longue' ....makes a annoying sound while puffing........most hazardous.......very raw basically....u got what i meant to say.....
8. Gold Flakes Kings: very basic cigarette....typical made in india product......extremely down to earth!!.....nothing to write about frankly speaking............
9. Gold Flake Lights and classic ultra milds: hmmmm......quite a smooth taste.......pretty light as per the name......advisable for beginners and ladies.........if u see an old person smoking this....believe me his body must have said NO to him by now.....u know what i mean.......
10. Davidoff lights: extremely light cigarette......good showoff like most other European things.......
11. Davidoff Regular: the packaging is really good in the purple coloured case with the best caption ever ' smokers die younger'......but taste wise...pretty strong and straight taste...it is like in your face......u would not want to smoke two of this one after the other.........I didn't like it much.........
12. Classic menthol: gives u cool feeling of menthol....nothing else worth mentioning........
13. Phillies cigar: the cheapest cigars available in general markets...will give u sweet taste at the tip with lot of smoke.....
14. Marlboro regular: by now u must be thinking ...how strange it is that a cigaretter (don't ever say smoker)...not talking about 'Marlboro'. Well the world's most used brand is pretty good ...needless to say......a very gentle macho taste....but beware...even in india also...use only the foreign made product...yes you get those smuggled ones...and those are only good...the indian made tastes rotten.
    

SADISM

writing about sadism seems weird...even to somebody like me...u always hear about these 'how to be happy' write ups..books..and self improvement articles.......but nobody ever might have written about being sad and 'how to be sad'......
perhaps this is because people are in general unhappy about everything surrounding them...right from job..to relationships...to politics...to country...to world in general.........and it is such a thing which is always there..need not be attained...
then why to run from this...Accept sadness.......and believe me u will happy...this is sadism...awestruck??? read on.......
Life goes on full circle ....there is a full circle about humans emotions too....imagine some super power leaves you at around quarter place.....and there are two options given to you....either go ahead around the 3 quarters to reach the zero position ....in pictorial terms....try to attain everything that is supposed to give happiness...try to get everything possible so that there is nothing left to be attained...and then u have a zero feeling...that is where you get the real pleasure..............exactly what all the 'how to be happy' books preach you
or there is a second way.....follow back and travel the 1 quarter u had ...and u still reaches the zero..don't you.........pictorially speaking.........loose every damn thing....if u r sad then so be it...stop worrying....expect more sadness....be rest with that......there is nothing worse than this that can happen....this is also the same zero feeling.....believe me u will be same happy.....point is this takes lot less time.....
There was one dialogue in the movie 'fight club'..'it is when u loose everything..that u r free to do anything' . Sounds like genuinely genius philosophy..doesn't it........This is the essence of Sadism....
Loose all hope.....and may u rest in peace always...AHEM

just another sad day

Don't think that I am here trying to pursue any agenda of preaching or justifying anything about myself and my beliefs....I am just trying to feel better myself by penning what i think...
today i was really sad ...nothing new though but still... today is one of my good friend's wedding and tommorrow is my parent's 25'th wedding anniversary...I am not going though to either...i am here stuck in my stupid job and beyond description senseless fever...(i get fever even if temperature shows a sudden deviation of just 2 degrees!!)
People say bhagwan jab deta hain chappar phaad kar deta hain....i say pretty true and also true is that almighty never discriminates even in between joys and miseries....when he gives either ..there are no limits.....
maybe this sounds bit exaggerated...but true isn't it....when u really want something...i don't think u r in a mood for negotiation....when there are emotions involved then there are never any justifications and logics....
was whole day just lying down...thinking and thinking and thinking...and finally thought what the hell...it is good however it is....gave up on myself...somehow felt very relieved...was happy for no reason...felt like that there can't be anything worse than this...this is the abyss...cmon u so called god...do what more worse you can do to me....u r powerless aren't you....i am not going to be sad this way anymore...do what more you can.....

first post

here i am finally putting up my blog.....don't know what purpose does a blog solves...probably it gives liberty of believing that there are people reading this and in literal terms listening to you...
kind of strange isn't it..!! A country number one in only one thing ..population (i know China is still ahead if India...don't try to teach me) and still you have to write on lifeless internet to be listened!! but the lure of uncertain had it better of me here too and so here i am writting a blog.
I thought really hard before putting up the blog name but really could not come up with anything else...people around me say that I am a sadist and i keep hearing this often so much that even I have started to call myself a sadist and a preacher of sadism...but frankly speaking I am happy in being this way...who the hell cares what others make of you..till u r ok with ur own self...